So today is the day that I was suposed to reveal what was in my foodie pen pal box. i got it a few days zgo' and have already opened, and eaten all that was in my box. I wrote out a whole post on my computer to post today, but my computer broke yesterday and is in the shop until tomorrow. :( I promise as soon as i get it back, Ill post it!
My birthday is tomorrow, and I can already promise that I wont be eating that great. I have a lot to post about, and I will try to post tomorrow after we get back from the zoo! :)
Tuesday, July 31, 2012
Wednesday, July 25, 2012
Struggles.
I don't know if anyone else here has the same types of struggles that I do, but I have been thinking a lot lately about why I am having a hard time staying motivated, and to continue my path to being healthy. I hate using that term, "being healthy", because in all actuality, I am healthy. I don't have high blood pressure, I don't have issues with my blood sugar, or anything. I have a body that is completely healthy, except for the fact that there is way too much fat on my bones. I have always told myself that, because I am healthy, my body must not mind having the fat on it. It must be comfortable being this size, and I could continue the way I am. I know that eventually, it will catch up to me. Heart disease runs in both sides of my family, and I know that it will show up in my life one day. Because that is a terrifying thought, that's why I am doing what I am doing.
But once again, why am I finding it so hard to keep motivated? And then it dawned on me.
I like to eat.
I like eating pizza for breakfast.
I like eating entire boxes of Mac and Cheese.
I like Appetizers, Entrees, and Desserts at restaurants.
I like to eat big, buttery buckets of popcorn.
I like Diet Coke.
I like eating chips, even if it's the whole bag, while watching tv.
I like eating, what I want, when I want, without thinking of the calories, or how it's going to screw up the rest of my day.
I like looking at a restaurant menu like it's my own personal wish list, and getting to order anything that I want.
I like being able to go down every aisle at the grocery store, without worry that I'll buy something that will lead to a binge. Because I really don't mind binges. I like to "snack".
It's these things that are making it difficult for me to stay motivated. But there are also a lot of things that I don't like.
I don't like the way I look.
I don't like feeling weighed down all the time.
I don't like that I have to hold my breath to tie my shoes.
I don't like that I can't cross my legs at the movie theater.
I don't like that I always feel like my husband wishes I was just a bit prettier/skinnier/sexier, even though he constantly tells me that I'm all those things.
I don't like feeling judged by my family, friends, and strangers.
I don't like going shopping, unless it's for perfume or jewelery - things that don't require a size.
I don't like going shopping because it means hoping and praying that the largest size will fit me.
I don't like going to the mall, because there's only one or two stores that I can actually shop at.
I don't like getting dressed in the morning, because it is a constant battle of finding something that fits AND looks good.
I don't like constantly feeling like I am not as good as other people, only because I am double their size.
I don't like feeling trapped in my body.
I have to figure out a way to continue to do the things I like, while fixing the things I don't. I really think that eventually, I will be able to ignore my "like" of binging, or large amounts of food, and crave the good things. I want my mind to ignore the want to binge, and instead go to the gym.
I'll get there, eventually. But it will be a struggle the whole way.
But once again, why am I finding it so hard to keep motivated? And then it dawned on me.
I like to eat.
I like eating pizza for breakfast.
I like eating entire boxes of Mac and Cheese.
I like Appetizers, Entrees, and Desserts at restaurants.
I like to eat big, buttery buckets of popcorn.
I like Diet Coke.
I like eating chips, even if it's the whole bag, while watching tv.
I like eating, what I want, when I want, without thinking of the calories, or how it's going to screw up the rest of my day.
I like looking at a restaurant menu like it's my own personal wish list, and getting to order anything that I want.
I like being able to go down every aisle at the grocery store, without worry that I'll buy something that will lead to a binge. Because I really don't mind binges. I like to "snack".
It's these things that are making it difficult for me to stay motivated. But there are also a lot of things that I don't like.
I don't like the way I look.
I don't like feeling weighed down all the time.
I don't like that I have to hold my breath to tie my shoes.
I don't like that I can't cross my legs at the movie theater.
I don't like that I always feel like my husband wishes I was just a bit prettier/skinnier/sexier, even though he constantly tells me that I'm all those things.
I don't like feeling judged by my family, friends, and strangers.
I don't like going shopping, unless it's for perfume or jewelery - things that don't require a size.
I don't like going shopping because it means hoping and praying that the largest size will fit me.
I don't like going to the mall, because there's only one or two stores that I can actually shop at.
I don't like getting dressed in the morning, because it is a constant battle of finding something that fits AND looks good.
I don't like constantly feeling like I am not as good as other people, only because I am double their size.
I don't like feeling trapped in my body.
I have to figure out a way to continue to do the things I like, while fixing the things I don't. I really think that eventually, I will be able to ignore my "like" of binging, or large amounts of food, and crave the good things. I want my mind to ignore the want to binge, and instead go to the gym.
I'll get there, eventually. But it will be a struggle the whole way.
Monday, July 23, 2012
I'm still here!
Sorry it's been a few days since I've written. Honestly, I haven't written mostly because I haven't been doing anything worth writing about. I haven't worked out, I haven't been eating well...I did lose .6lbs though! 1lb in 2 weeks is kinda sad. I am determined to lose more this week though!
Friday we spent the day in Chicago, because we were seeing the Michael Jackson The Immortal Cirque du Soleil show. It was SO good. We had so much fun, at the show, and just hanging out in Chicago. We went to an outlet mall on the way there, and I got the most comfortable sports bra EVER from Champion. I'm used to cheap, nothing to them sports bras, so having one that actually has support is so fantastic. I can't wait to run in it!
Has anyone used the Jeff Galloway method for training? I just downloaded the Princess Half Marathon training program, and I'm confused about all of the things it's telling me at the beginning. I would like to use that program, but I just need some help! :)
Friday we spent the day in Chicago, because we were seeing the Michael Jackson The Immortal Cirque du Soleil show. It was SO good. We had so much fun, at the show, and just hanging out in Chicago. We went to an outlet mall on the way there, and I got the most comfortable sports bra EVER from Champion. I'm used to cheap, nothing to them sports bras, so having one that actually has support is so fantastic. I can't wait to run in it!
Has anyone used the Jeff Galloway method for training? I just downloaded the Princess Half Marathon training program, and I'm confused about all of the things it's telling me at the beginning. I would like to use that program, but I just need some help! :)
Thursday, July 19, 2012
Good Intentions don't make you skinny.....
My sleep has been all off the last few days, so my time at the gym has been slim to none. I went on Tuesday and it was great, and had every intention on going yesterday and today. But I just can't seem to make myself get out of bed. Tuesday night, we went to bed kinda early (11:30) because it was so hot in our house. We have an AC unit in our bedroom, but it's not big enough to cool the whole house, so the days when it's super hot out, we spend a lot of time just hanging out in the bedroom. Well, I'm still trying to finish reading the last book of the Fifty Shades series, so I was up until almost 1:30 reading. And then Cody had a hard time getting comfortable, so he ended up putting his pillow at the foot end of the bed, which is right in front of the AC, and slept that way. I ended up getting kicked in the face a few times during the night. :) So when my alarm went off at 7am, I turned it off and slept until 10.
Last night, we decided to let our puppy sleep in our bed, and that never makes for a great nights sleep. She generally sleeps in her crate, but we're slowly trying to get her used to being out of her crate at night, and when we're gone. When I start working at my new job, Cody and I will basically be working 10+ hour shifts, at the same time, so I don't want her to be crated the whole time we're gone. We're going to be having someone come over and walk her and play with her, but I'd rather not have her crated. So she slept in our bed. She did great until about 5, which is when she woke up and started licking everything. She has this weird habit of licking. She'll lick the couch, she licks pillows, she licks people....she just licks. So I woke up to this big wet spot on the sheets where she'd been licking. So I tried to kick her back down to the end of the bed, and she started biting and wanting to play. She ended up getting up herself and going in her crate, so I just shut the door. 5 hours was longer than she'd slept in our bed before. We're just gonna keep trying and hopefully eventually she'll be able to sleep through the whole night.
I am so excited for tomorrow. Since my birthday is in just about two weeks, and Cody is going to have to work the whole day, we are celebrating it tomorrow. He bought me tickets to go see the Michael Jackson Cirque Du Soleil show! I'm super excited. I'm a big Michael Jackson fan, and I always hoped to see him in concert one day. Obviously, I won't be able to do that now, but I'm hoping that this show is just as good! It's in chicago, so we're going to leave here early tomorrow morning, and spend the day probably just hanging out downtown Chciago, eating somewhere cool, and going to the show at night. I can't wait!!
Last night, we decided to let our puppy sleep in our bed, and that never makes for a great nights sleep. She generally sleeps in her crate, but we're slowly trying to get her used to being out of her crate at night, and when we're gone. When I start working at my new job, Cody and I will basically be working 10+ hour shifts, at the same time, so I don't want her to be crated the whole time we're gone. We're going to be having someone come over and walk her and play with her, but I'd rather not have her crated. So she slept in our bed. She did great until about 5, which is when she woke up and started licking everything. She has this weird habit of licking. She'll lick the couch, she licks pillows, she licks people....she just licks. So I woke up to this big wet spot on the sheets where she'd been licking. So I tried to kick her back down to the end of the bed, and she started biting and wanting to play. She ended up getting up herself and going in her crate, so I just shut the door. 5 hours was longer than she'd slept in our bed before. We're just gonna keep trying and hopefully eventually she'll be able to sleep through the whole night.
I am so excited for tomorrow. Since my birthday is in just about two weeks, and Cody is going to have to work the whole day, we are celebrating it tomorrow. He bought me tickets to go see the Michael Jackson Cirque Du Soleil show! I'm super excited. I'm a big Michael Jackson fan, and I always hoped to see him in concert one day. Obviously, I won't be able to do that now, but I'm hoping that this show is just as good! It's in chicago, so we're going to leave here early tomorrow morning, and spend the day probably just hanging out downtown Chciago, eating somewhere cool, and going to the show at night. I can't wait!!
Wednesday, July 18, 2012
Sunshine Blogger Award
Thanks to Mallory, she gave me a Sunshine Blogger Award! :)
She said in her blog post that my blog was an inspiration to her, which made me smile! :) I hardly see myself as an inspiration, but I'm glad that I've been an inspiration to you Mallory! Thank you so much! You made my day. :)
Okay so there are some rules that go along with this award:
1. Include the award log either in your acceptance post or somewhere on your blog.
2. Answer 10 Questions about yourself.
3. Pass the award on to 10-12 other deserving bloggers.
4. Add a link on your post to all the talented winners and comment on their page to let them know they've been deemed amazing.
5. Thank the brilliant soul that recognized your talent and bestowed this wonderful award on you...and of course link back to them as well.
Question Time!!
1. What would you most like to change about yourself? I'd like to be able to get out of my brain a little bit, and be more daring. I am much better than I used to be. I used to be so shy and reserved that I didn't do anything out of my comfort zone. While I am getting better, I wish that I could stop being so nervous about things, and do things out of my comfort zone....such as go to the Zumba class that I've been wanting to go to!
2. What is your theme song? Oh geeeez...I'm not sure. I think right now it would just be "The Fighter" by Gym Class Heroes. It has been inspiring me to continue to fight for what I want, and to meet my goals.
3. One part of your life, a memory, action, etc., that you wish you could surgically remove from your brain. It's actually two separate memories, but when my grandparents passed away. My grandma died first, and then my grandpa a few years later, and each time was such a hard time for my entire family, it was hard to watch everyone in so much pain.
4. What generation do you wish you had been a part of? The 1940's and 1950's. Mostly because I have a crazy love for Frank Sinatra, and would have loved to be around during that time period. Everything seems so classy, unlike now, where it's hard to find class in this generation.
5. What was your favorite Childhood Toy? All of my stuffed animals/dolls/etc. I loved to play house with them. One of my favorite pictures of me is me taking a nap, with all of my favorite dolls all lined up on a body pillow, and me sleeping, hardly on the pillow because I wanted to make sure there was enough room for my dolls.
6. What is your favorite housecleaning chore? Vacuuming, or Dusting. I have this weird love of doing things where you see a result. So dusting is fun, especially when it's really dusty, because you can see an immediate difference, where mopping, you really can't tell. And I love to vacuum just because I like to see that all the crap that was in my carpet, is no longer there.
7. Do you twitter? Do I have a twitter? yes. Do I use it? not really. I will send a tweet from time to time, but I don't do much other than read others tweets. And mostly, I follow famous people. My twitter news feed is generally filled up with Kardashian tweets.
8. Any goals? To be able to complete the 2013 Disney's Princess Half Marathon.
9. Do you drink margaritas all the time? No. I don't like tequila. I always think I do, until I have some, and then I remember that it's absolutely terrible.
10. What's the ugliest car you've ever driven and were embarrassed to be seen in? Well, I've only had two cars in my life, and I loved them both. My husband, on the other hand, has a had a lot of cars, and when we first started dating, he was driving a Tiffany Blue Chevy Aveo. It was terrible.
And my winners! (Even though you're all winners in my book!)
Hot Red Newlywed - She's a good friend of mine, Julia, and she's lost almost 50lbs! Such an inspiration! Love you!!
DisneyMommi - Bethi just had a baby and she's on her way to losing 80lbs before the Princess Half Marathon!
Eating Away Ernie - I've loved reading her blog, she is doing great with the c25k program!
Fat Girl Finding Fit - Monica is doing AMAZING. She went from not running at all, to running 5 miles, and she's working her way up to a 10k!
Hello Fitness...We meet again! - Jen is a very inspirational runner, and another one doing the princess half marathon!
Minus One Hundred - Marcia has already lost 100lbs, and she's working at maintaining, and losing the last little bit!
One Hundred Eleven Pounds - Leslie is doing an amazing job at working towards her goal of losing 111 lbs.
Runs for Cookies - Katie's blog is one of the first ones that I began reading. Very inspirational!
Because I want to - Tess is another runner who inspires me to run! Also, she's giving away an ipod on her blog, go check it out!
Does this Scale make me look fat? - Melinda is another one that I like to read, to inspire me to work towards my goal!
She said in her blog post that my blog was an inspiration to her, which made me smile! :) I hardly see myself as an inspiration, but I'm glad that I've been an inspiration to you Mallory! Thank you so much! You made my day. :)
Okay so there are some rules that go along with this award:
1. Include the award log either in your acceptance post or somewhere on your blog.
2. Answer 10 Questions about yourself.
3. Pass the award on to 10-12 other deserving bloggers.
4. Add a link on your post to all the talented winners and comment on their page to let them know they've been deemed amazing.
5. Thank the brilliant soul that recognized your talent and bestowed this wonderful award on you...and of course link back to them as well.
Question Time!!
1. What would you most like to change about yourself? I'd like to be able to get out of my brain a little bit, and be more daring. I am much better than I used to be. I used to be so shy and reserved that I didn't do anything out of my comfort zone. While I am getting better, I wish that I could stop being so nervous about things, and do things out of my comfort zone....such as go to the Zumba class that I've been wanting to go to!
2. What is your theme song? Oh geeeez...I'm not sure. I think right now it would just be "The Fighter" by Gym Class Heroes. It has been inspiring me to continue to fight for what I want, and to meet my goals.
3. One part of your life, a memory, action, etc., that you wish you could surgically remove from your brain. It's actually two separate memories, but when my grandparents passed away. My grandma died first, and then my grandpa a few years later, and each time was such a hard time for my entire family, it was hard to watch everyone in so much pain.
4. What generation do you wish you had been a part of? The 1940's and 1950's. Mostly because I have a crazy love for Frank Sinatra, and would have loved to be around during that time period. Everything seems so classy, unlike now, where it's hard to find class in this generation.
5. What was your favorite Childhood Toy? All of my stuffed animals/dolls/etc. I loved to play house with them. One of my favorite pictures of me is me taking a nap, with all of my favorite dolls all lined up on a body pillow, and me sleeping, hardly on the pillow because I wanted to make sure there was enough room for my dolls.
6. What is your favorite housecleaning chore? Vacuuming, or Dusting. I have this weird love of doing things where you see a result. So dusting is fun, especially when it's really dusty, because you can see an immediate difference, where mopping, you really can't tell. And I love to vacuum just because I like to see that all the crap that was in my carpet, is no longer there.
7. Do you twitter? Do I have a twitter? yes. Do I use it? not really. I will send a tweet from time to time, but I don't do much other than read others tweets. And mostly, I follow famous people. My twitter news feed is generally filled up with Kardashian tweets.
8. Any goals? To be able to complete the 2013 Disney's Princess Half Marathon.
9. Do you drink margaritas all the time? No. I don't like tequila. I always think I do, until I have some, and then I remember that it's absolutely terrible.
10. What's the ugliest car you've ever driven and were embarrassed to be seen in? Well, I've only had two cars in my life, and I loved them both. My husband, on the other hand, has a had a lot of cars, and when we first started dating, he was driving a Tiffany Blue Chevy Aveo. It was terrible.
And my winners! (Even though you're all winners in my book!)
Hot Red Newlywed - She's a good friend of mine, Julia, and she's lost almost 50lbs! Such an inspiration! Love you!!
DisneyMommi - Bethi just had a baby and she's on her way to losing 80lbs before the Princess Half Marathon!
Eating Away Ernie - I've loved reading her blog, she is doing great with the c25k program!
Fat Girl Finding Fit - Monica is doing AMAZING. She went from not running at all, to running 5 miles, and she's working her way up to a 10k!
Hello Fitness...We meet again! - Jen is a very inspirational runner, and another one doing the princess half marathon!
Minus One Hundred - Marcia has already lost 100lbs, and she's working at maintaining, and losing the last little bit!
One Hundred Eleven Pounds - Leslie is doing an amazing job at working towards her goal of losing 111 lbs.
Runs for Cookies - Katie's blog is one of the first ones that I began reading. Very inspirational!
Because I want to - Tess is another runner who inspires me to run! Also, she's giving away an ipod on her blog, go check it out!
Does this Scale make me look fat? - Melinda is another one that I like to read, to inspire me to work towards my goal!
Tuesday, July 17, 2012
Sweat
Why, why, why, when it's 973 degrees outside, does my gym insist on not having the AC turned on? It's always so dang hot in the cardio room. I know that the hotter it is outside, the harder the AC has to work to keep the inside cool, and I also know that some people like to sweat a lot at the gym, but I'd rather not die of heat stroke when I'm running. The good thing about it being so hot is that I am drinking my water like I should.
My run tonight was okay. I really, really need to pick a training program and stick to it. I think I'm just gonna work on the Couch to 10k program. I am finding that my progress is going backwards because I'm not consistent with running, so I'm losing stamina. I did Week 3, Day 1 of the c210k program, and had a hard time with it. It's a 90 second run, 90 second walk, 3 minute run, 3 minute walk, and then repeat. I was just able to get through the first 3 minute run, but the second, I was only able to go for about 2 minutes. I'm hoping that by the end of the week I'll be able to get through it!
My run tonight was okay. I really, really need to pick a training program and stick to it. I think I'm just gonna work on the Couch to 10k program. I am finding that my progress is going backwards because I'm not consistent with running, so I'm losing stamina. I did Week 3, Day 1 of the c210k program, and had a hard time with it. It's a 90 second run, 90 second walk, 3 minute run, 3 minute walk, and then repeat. I was just able to get through the first 3 minute run, but the second, I was only able to go for about 2 minutes. I'm hoping that by the end of the week I'll be able to get through it!
Monday, July 16, 2012
I love Vacations!
Okay, let me start off this post with my weigh-in. I so appreciate all the kind, supportive words from you guys last post. I won't quit my journey, but it gets so frustrating sometimes when you try so hard and nothing comes of it. This weeks loss is .4 lbs. I guess I should just be happy that it's a down number instead of an up, like last week, but I'm still just a bit disappointed. I'm just gonna keep trucking along and hopefully the number on the scale will be lower next week.
So.....VACATION! I may have written about this already, I'm not sure, but I'm so excited I have to write about it again. Cody and I decided that we are gonna take a SUPER quick, 4 day trip down to Orlando for Disney's International Food and Wine Festival! I have been down in Florida during that time, but never really gone and experienced it before. We are taking a Monday-Thursday trip in October. We are only going to have 2 days at the parks, because Monday and Thursday will be for traveling, but I'm still super excited! Because we are trying to make this an affordable trip, we are going to be staying at the All-Star resort (probably Music, but maybe Movies). We got SO lucky, because they are doing Free Dining during the time we're there! YAY! Cody explained to me last night that this trip is his trip, and the trip in February is my trip. Therefore, I think we are going to be upgrading our free dining package. Because we're staying at a value resort, we get the free quick service dining plan. 2 Quick Service meals and 1 snack each night we're at resort. So, Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday. But because we're such foodies, and Cody really wants to experience as much of the Disney food as possible, I think we're going to upgrade to the Deluxe Dining Plan. That includes 3 Table Service meals a night, and 2 Snacks. If we have done our math right, it should be about $50 per person per day to upgrade. At some of the Table Service restaurants, we could easily be spending more than $50 a person on just one meal, so it's such a good deal! This will give us an opportunity to do things I've never done before, like some Character Breakfasts, or eat at some of the amazing restaurants in the world showcase in Epcot! We can even use 2 of our meal credits to eat at some of the more expensive restaurants. Cody has been looking it up online, and there was a couple who upgraded to the free dining for 2 days, and they figured out that they racked up a bill of over $700, just in meals. They only paid $200 to upgrade to the Deluxe dining plan, just like we would, so they saved $500 in meals! Such a good deal.
And, to top it all off, we will be going there when Hanson is playing at Epcot for the Eat to the Beat Concert Series!!! Don't judge....but Hanson is my favorite band. I've seen them more times than I'd really like to admit (okay, okay...somewhere in the 25 range, but it's been over a period of 11 years!). I can't even imagine getting to combine my 4 favorite things....My husband, Disney, Hanson, and food!!!
Okay I gotta go, we're getting ready to book the trip right now! :)
So.....VACATION! I may have written about this already, I'm not sure, but I'm so excited I have to write about it again. Cody and I decided that we are gonna take a SUPER quick, 4 day trip down to Orlando for Disney's International Food and Wine Festival! I have been down in Florida during that time, but never really gone and experienced it before. We are taking a Monday-Thursday trip in October. We are only going to have 2 days at the parks, because Monday and Thursday will be for traveling, but I'm still super excited! Because we are trying to make this an affordable trip, we are going to be staying at the All-Star resort (probably Music, but maybe Movies). We got SO lucky, because they are doing Free Dining during the time we're there! YAY! Cody explained to me last night that this trip is his trip, and the trip in February is my trip. Therefore, I think we are going to be upgrading our free dining package. Because we're staying at a value resort, we get the free quick service dining plan. 2 Quick Service meals and 1 snack each night we're at resort. So, Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday. But because we're such foodies, and Cody really wants to experience as much of the Disney food as possible, I think we're going to upgrade to the Deluxe Dining Plan. That includes 3 Table Service meals a night, and 2 Snacks. If we have done our math right, it should be about $50 per person per day to upgrade. At some of the Table Service restaurants, we could easily be spending more than $50 a person on just one meal, so it's such a good deal! This will give us an opportunity to do things I've never done before, like some Character Breakfasts, or eat at some of the amazing restaurants in the world showcase in Epcot! We can even use 2 of our meal credits to eat at some of the more expensive restaurants. Cody has been looking it up online, and there was a couple who upgraded to the free dining for 2 days, and they figured out that they racked up a bill of over $700, just in meals. They only paid $200 to upgrade to the Deluxe dining plan, just like we would, so they saved $500 in meals! Such a good deal.
And, to top it all off, we will be going there when Hanson is playing at Epcot for the Eat to the Beat Concert Series!!! Don't judge....but Hanson is my favorite band. I've seen them more times than I'd really like to admit (okay, okay...somewhere in the 25 range, but it's been over a period of 11 years!). I can't even imagine getting to combine my 4 favorite things....My husband, Disney, Hanson, and food!!!
Okay I gotta go, we're getting ready to book the trip right now! :)
Saturday, July 14, 2012
So Frustrated.
While I really do like surprises, I don't have a lot of self control, so I tend to "try" to spoil them. I get so impatient that I need to see what it is before it can surprise me. It's kind of an annoying habit because I don't usually get to have the fun surprised feelings, because I already know what it is.
It's the same thing with my weight. I know you shouldn't weigh yourself everyday, but I do anyway because I don't want to be surprised on Monday for my weigh-ins. I'd rather have an idea of what it's going to be so I'm not shocked.
I haven't hit my target of going to the gym and working out every day this week. BUT I have worked out more than I have the last few weeks. I went to the gym and got a good work out in on Tuesday. Then I did the 30 Day Shred on Wednesday and Thursday. I took yesterday off, but plan on doing the 30DS again today. I have been under my calorie goal just about every day, and if I have gone over, it's only been by a little bit.
And I have gained weight.
And no, I haven't lost inches. And I really doubt that 2 days of the 30DS would make me gain muscle weight.
I had gotten down to 245, and then went up to 247, and now I'm at 248. I don't know whats wrong. It just kind of like, reassures me that my fears might be true, and that my weight loss is actually not happening. It makes me so frustrated, and want to just stop. Why put in the work, and watch what I eat, when nothing is going to come of it? I just wish I knew what to do to make me lose weight. I'm just tired of it and want to quit. Don't worry, I'm not going to, but I just want to. So frustrated.
It's the same thing with my weight. I know you shouldn't weigh yourself everyday, but I do anyway because I don't want to be surprised on Monday for my weigh-ins. I'd rather have an idea of what it's going to be so I'm not shocked.
I haven't hit my target of going to the gym and working out every day this week. BUT I have worked out more than I have the last few weeks. I went to the gym and got a good work out in on Tuesday. Then I did the 30 Day Shred on Wednesday and Thursday. I took yesterday off, but plan on doing the 30DS again today. I have been under my calorie goal just about every day, and if I have gone over, it's only been by a little bit.
And I have gained weight.
And no, I haven't lost inches. And I really doubt that 2 days of the 30DS would make me gain muscle weight.
I had gotten down to 245, and then went up to 247, and now I'm at 248. I don't know whats wrong. It just kind of like, reassures me that my fears might be true, and that my weight loss is actually not happening. It makes me so frustrated, and want to just stop. Why put in the work, and watch what I eat, when nothing is going to come of it? I just wish I knew what to do to make me lose weight. I'm just tired of it and want to quit. Don't worry, I'm not going to, but I just want to. So frustrated.
Thursday, July 12, 2012
30 Day Shred
I decided to start doing the 30 Day Shred. I had tried doing it before, but was SO sore from the first workout, that I couldn't even think of doing it again. I have been feeling bad about the fact that I keep making plans to get up early and go to the gym, and not going, that I should do SOMETHING to get some workout in, if I don't end up going to the gym. I went to the gym on Tuesday, and was going to go on Wednesday but I was so sleepy (we haven't been sleeping great, because our AC unit is making weird noises all night, keeping us up). So I decided to do the 30DS video, and I'm glad I did! It kicked my butt, but I felt good. I, once again, didn't get up this morning, so I just got done doing the video again. I can't say it was easier...but I did realize something. When my muscles are so sore, and it hurts to move, working out and warming your muscles back up really helps with the soreness! I'm sure I'll feel it again later tonight, but for now, my muscles are just tired, not sore!
I really do need to get back to running, though. I will never be able to do the half marathon in September if I don't start running, and I HAVE to do the princess half in February. Speaking of, registration is now open! YAY! I haven't registered yet, just because the $140 price tag is a bit too hefty for us right at the moment. I do plan on registering within the next month or so, though!
Well, time to hit the showers, and make out a grocery list! The hubby and I have a bad habit of just going to the grocery store and buying what we think we need. We tend to forget something every time! So we're gonna make a list this time and see how that works out. :)
Have a good day!
Tuesday, July 10, 2012
Lose a Baby Giraffe Challenge
Bethi over at DisneyMommi is hosting a challenge, called the Lose a Baby Giraffe Challenge.
She is challenging everyone to lose 80lbs, or the weight of a baby giraffe, by the Princess Half Marathon. So, my first weigh in for the challenge is....
Starting Weight: 245.4
Current Weight: 247.2
Difference: +1.8
So as you can see, I'm really rocking this challenge. haha. I had a decent loss the week before, that I sort of thought was a fluke, so I am really not all that worried about it. I am gonna work HARD this week to make sure there is a loss!
I started out this week not so great. I had plans on going to the gym on Monday morning, before my job interview. Well, I forgot to set my alarm, and woke up with just enough time to get ready for my interview. Yesterday was a full day, so I wasn't able to get to the gym, which bummed me out a bit.
Today, we went to a local water park. We bought season passes a few months ago, because our house is really close to it, so we figured we could just go for a few hours on random days if we had season passes. We've used it enough to make it worth it, so it was a good buy. It was the only thing that kept us cool when we were having 90 and 100 degree weather! So we decided to spend the day today just laying out, and hanging out in the lazy river. We dropped Remy off at doggie daycare, so that she could have a full day of exercise. We had a nice, relaxing day. Cody had to go to work for a few hours, so I decided that was the perfect time to go to the gym.
I had every intention of going 2 full miles, and running 1/4 mile, and walking 1/4 mile. Well, I guess I'm just not quite ready to go that much yet, because the first 1/4 mile I ran I literally thought I'd die. I think that I'm not used to running later at night, since I usually get up early and run. I am not used to having a full belly, and going through a full day before getting my workout in, which made it harder. Excuses, probably, but it was still awful. So I ended up doing 1.5 miles, and finished off by running .10, then walking .10. I also did 20 minutes on the elliptical. So I got a little bit more in than usual. It felt good! :)
She is challenging everyone to lose 80lbs, or the weight of a baby giraffe, by the Princess Half Marathon. So, my first weigh in for the challenge is....
Starting Weight: 245.4
Current Weight: 247.2
Difference: +1.8
So as you can see, I'm really rocking this challenge. haha. I had a decent loss the week before, that I sort of thought was a fluke, so I am really not all that worried about it. I am gonna work HARD this week to make sure there is a loss!
I started out this week not so great. I had plans on going to the gym on Monday morning, before my job interview. Well, I forgot to set my alarm, and woke up with just enough time to get ready for my interview. Yesterday was a full day, so I wasn't able to get to the gym, which bummed me out a bit.
Today, we went to a local water park. We bought season passes a few months ago, because our house is really close to it, so we figured we could just go for a few hours on random days if we had season passes. We've used it enough to make it worth it, so it was a good buy. It was the only thing that kept us cool when we were having 90 and 100 degree weather! So we decided to spend the day today just laying out, and hanging out in the lazy river. We dropped Remy off at doggie daycare, so that she could have a full day of exercise. We had a nice, relaxing day. Cody had to go to work for a few hours, so I decided that was the perfect time to go to the gym.
I had every intention of going 2 full miles, and running 1/4 mile, and walking 1/4 mile. Well, I guess I'm just not quite ready to go that much yet, because the first 1/4 mile I ran I literally thought I'd die. I think that I'm not used to running later at night, since I usually get up early and run. I am not used to having a full belly, and going through a full day before getting my workout in, which made it harder. Excuses, probably, but it was still awful. So I ended up doing 1.5 miles, and finished off by running .10, then walking .10. I also did 20 minutes on the elliptical. So I got a little bit more in than usual. It felt good! :)
Sunday, July 8, 2012
Recipe, and other ramblings.
So, I'm going to star t this post with a "recipe". Melinda over at Does this scale make me look fat? is doing a thing called "Stop By Saturdays". Each week, she will post a question, and her readers will answer it, and link it to her page so we can all learn about each other!
This weeks question is "What is a food or recipe that you are loving right now?". The recipe that I'm loving at this moment is my "Tortilla Soup" recipe. It's not anything fancy, it's mostly canned goods (which means the sodium is a little high, but it's totally worth it). It's easy to make, quick and cheap, and tastes soooo good.
Tortilla Soup
1 Can Reduced Sodium Black Beans
1 Can Reduced Sodium Chicken Stock
1 Can Vegetarian Refried Beans
1 Jar Salsa
1 Medium Sized Bag Frozen Corn
Basically, you just put everything in a pot, and cook it until the refried beans are smooth. You can add chicken if you want, I have made it before with a crockpot salsa chicken, or sometimes I'll add green chilies in it. The calories change depending on what type of each thing you use, but the recipe I use generally has about 190 Calories per serving. I would say the soup makes 6 servings, but I really like it so I tend to eat 2 servings at a time. Sometimes I eat it with chips, and it's good if you add a little shredded cheese on top too. It's so good!
Okay, onto the ramblings.
I am so incredibly excited about the weather today. After about a week of temps in the high 90s, or 100's, it's FINALLY in the high 70s and it feels AMAZING. We don't have AC in our house (just a little AC unit in our bedroom, not big enough to cool the whole house) so it's been about 95 degrees in the house all week. Today it's a nice 75 and I am loving it. Perfect timing too, because we have our days off tomorrow and Tuesday.
Tomorrow I have another (and hopefully final!) interview at the restaurant I've been telling you guys about. I am super nervous and excited. I am SO ready to be done at my current job. If for some reason I don't get this job, I am still planning on finding something else, because I can't deal with it anymore. My manager always does what she needs to do to cover her shifts, even if that means taking some staff from my shifts (the night shifts) and leaving me short staffed. She wanted to go away for the holiday, but instead of just figuring out the schedule before hand, she ended up taking one person from each night shift to cover her day shifts, leaving me short all week, which made things hell all week at work.
Alright, I have some left over soup calling my name, so I'm off. I made a plan to go to the gym at least 4 days this week, Monday, Wednesday, Friday and Saturday. Ya'll hold me to that!!! :)
This weeks question is "What is a food or recipe that you are loving right now?". The recipe that I'm loving at this moment is my "Tortilla Soup" recipe. It's not anything fancy, it's mostly canned goods (which means the sodium is a little high, but it's totally worth it). It's easy to make, quick and cheap, and tastes soooo good.
Tortilla Soup
1 Can Reduced Sodium Black Beans
1 Can Reduced Sodium Chicken Stock
1 Can Vegetarian Refried Beans
1 Jar Salsa
1 Medium Sized Bag Frozen Corn
Basically, you just put everything in a pot, and cook it until the refried beans are smooth. You can add chicken if you want, I have made it before with a crockpot salsa chicken, or sometimes I'll add green chilies in it. The calories change depending on what type of each thing you use, but the recipe I use generally has about 190 Calories per serving. I would say the soup makes 6 servings, but I really like it so I tend to eat 2 servings at a time. Sometimes I eat it with chips, and it's good if you add a little shredded cheese on top too. It's so good!
Okay, onto the ramblings.
I am so incredibly excited about the weather today. After about a week of temps in the high 90s, or 100's, it's FINALLY in the high 70s and it feels AMAZING. We don't have AC in our house (just a little AC unit in our bedroom, not big enough to cool the whole house) so it's been about 95 degrees in the house all week. Today it's a nice 75 and I am loving it. Perfect timing too, because we have our days off tomorrow and Tuesday.
Tomorrow I have another (and hopefully final!) interview at the restaurant I've been telling you guys about. I am super nervous and excited. I am SO ready to be done at my current job. If for some reason I don't get this job, I am still planning on finding something else, because I can't deal with it anymore. My manager always does what she needs to do to cover her shifts, even if that means taking some staff from my shifts (the night shifts) and leaving me short staffed. She wanted to go away for the holiday, but instead of just figuring out the schedule before hand, she ended up taking one person from each night shift to cover her day shifts, leaving me short all week, which made things hell all week at work.
Alright, I have some left over soup calling my name, so I'm off. I made a plan to go to the gym at least 4 days this week, Monday, Wednesday, Friday and Saturday. Ya'll hold me to that!!! :)
Thursday, July 5, 2012
Hot Hot Hot
I wish I could say that I have been super productive in my fitness, but I haven't been. I ran last thursday - a week ago - and haven't ran since. I had yesterday off, and got up early with every intention on going to the YMCA....but it was closed. :( I haven't run today because my schedule today was supposed to be all screwed up. I decided to pick up some hours at a coffee shop that I used to work at, and so I was scheduled to work today from 10-3, and then at my other job from 4-close, but I got up and the coffee shop called and told me they didn't need me, because they were slow. Which works out nice, because we had all sorts of errands that had to be run today, and Cody wasn't too happy about having to do them alone, since they're things I usually do. So now, our house payment won't be late, and my Stella and Remy will have their flea meds on time. I am supposed to work tomorrow at both places too, and if I end up not having to work, I fully plan on doing some sort of exercise.
Did everyone have a great 4th of July? Mine, as I said, was pretty uneventful. I had the whole day off, and had thought about going downtown with my parents to watch the fireworks, but it's been so hot lately, the thought of walking that far in the heat (we usually have to park 2-3 miles away from where we actually go to watch the fireworks) was very unappealing. I was able to convince my friend Acacia to go to the movies with me, and we went and saw Magic Mike. Now, I knew this movie wasn't going to win any awards anytime soon....but let me tell you, I could watch Channing Tatum dance and strip all day long. He is HOT. After that, we went to Cody's restaurant and had dinner. It was nice to sit and talk with her, since I haven't seen her in a while.
We have been miserable in my house the last few days. With temps around 100, and no AC, it's been terrible. The house has been around 85-88 degrees. Luckily, we have a small AC unit in our bedroom, so we are able to get cool, but it's boring hanging out in the bedroom, so we try to handle the heat until we can't stand it, then we go to the bedroom for a few minutes to cool off. On Monday, all I wanted was a swimming pool. Tuesday, we decided to go to our local water park and hang out there for the day. It was nice, because there is a lazy river, so we just hung out there for the day to try and stay cool. It was a lot of fun, we might do it again this coming up Monday. Temps are supposed to drop though, so hopefully we won't be so dang hot!
So I have been looking for races to run this summer/fall. I have the Color Run coming up in August, and then there's a 5k that you can run with your dog that I might do in October. I heard that a bunch of people from my church are running a race on September 29. It's a 5k and a Half Marathon....and I have been toying with the idea of running the half marathon. Yes, I know that it's only in about 3 months. And I know that it sounds really crazy. But I really think that if I get myself to stick to a running plan of 3-4 times a week, I could be able to run some, and walk most. It will give me an idea of just how far a 13.1 miles is, so I can be prepared for the princess half. Am I crazy to think I could do this?
I think I finally have Cody on board with the whole being healthy thing. He said he weighed himself last weekend, and he is 25lbs heavier than his heaviest weight. Which makes sense, because I am the heaviest I've ever been, and it's all happened since we got together. I've gained probably 45-50lbs in the last 4 years. He needs more of a "kick in the balls" so to speak, to make him be healthy. We watched the documentary "Fat, Sick, and Nearly Dead" a few months ago, and we bought a juicer after we saw it. We have been juicing some, but not as much as we should. He decided that for a week (probably just until Monday) he's just going to eat fruits and vegetables, and drink fruit and veggie juice. He's not going to go completely crazy - he'll eat things like sauteed veggies and rice, or a veggie wrap, and fruit smoothies with yogurt, that kind of thing. But no meat, no pizza (he works at a pizza restaurant, so that's what he eats a lot when he's at work), and he will start counting calories after he's done with his "fast". I'm proud of him for taking the steps that he needs to get healthy. I do worry about him not getting enough of the other things he needs, or as many calories as he needs....but I think him eating this way is much healthier than how he has been eating. I'll try to keep you all updated on his progress as well.
Well, I'm off to find some breakfast, and get my errands done before I have to get ready for work. Have a great Thursday!
Did everyone have a great 4th of July? Mine, as I said, was pretty uneventful. I had the whole day off, and had thought about going downtown with my parents to watch the fireworks, but it's been so hot lately, the thought of walking that far in the heat (we usually have to park 2-3 miles away from where we actually go to watch the fireworks) was very unappealing. I was able to convince my friend Acacia to go to the movies with me, and we went and saw Magic Mike. Now, I knew this movie wasn't going to win any awards anytime soon....but let me tell you, I could watch Channing Tatum dance and strip all day long. He is HOT. After that, we went to Cody's restaurant and had dinner. It was nice to sit and talk with her, since I haven't seen her in a while.
We have been miserable in my house the last few days. With temps around 100, and no AC, it's been terrible. The house has been around 85-88 degrees. Luckily, we have a small AC unit in our bedroom, so we are able to get cool, but it's boring hanging out in the bedroom, so we try to handle the heat until we can't stand it, then we go to the bedroom for a few minutes to cool off. On Monday, all I wanted was a swimming pool. Tuesday, we decided to go to our local water park and hang out there for the day. It was nice, because there is a lazy river, so we just hung out there for the day to try and stay cool. It was a lot of fun, we might do it again this coming up Monday. Temps are supposed to drop though, so hopefully we won't be so dang hot!
So I have been looking for races to run this summer/fall. I have the Color Run coming up in August, and then there's a 5k that you can run with your dog that I might do in October. I heard that a bunch of people from my church are running a race on September 29. It's a 5k and a Half Marathon....and I have been toying with the idea of running the half marathon. Yes, I know that it's only in about 3 months. And I know that it sounds really crazy. But I really think that if I get myself to stick to a running plan of 3-4 times a week, I could be able to run some, and walk most. It will give me an idea of just how far a 13.1 miles is, so I can be prepared for the princess half. Am I crazy to think I could do this?
I think I finally have Cody on board with the whole being healthy thing. He said he weighed himself last weekend, and he is 25lbs heavier than his heaviest weight. Which makes sense, because I am the heaviest I've ever been, and it's all happened since we got together. I've gained probably 45-50lbs in the last 4 years. He needs more of a "kick in the balls" so to speak, to make him be healthy. We watched the documentary "Fat, Sick, and Nearly Dead" a few months ago, and we bought a juicer after we saw it. We have been juicing some, but not as much as we should. He decided that for a week (probably just until Monday) he's just going to eat fruits and vegetables, and drink fruit and veggie juice. He's not going to go completely crazy - he'll eat things like sauteed veggies and rice, or a veggie wrap, and fruit smoothies with yogurt, that kind of thing. But no meat, no pizza (he works at a pizza restaurant, so that's what he eats a lot when he's at work), and he will start counting calories after he's done with his "fast". I'm proud of him for taking the steps that he needs to get healthy. I do worry about him not getting enough of the other things he needs, or as many calories as he needs....but I think him eating this way is much healthier than how he has been eating. I'll try to keep you all updated on his progress as well.
Well, I'm off to find some breakfast, and get my errands done before I have to get ready for work. Have a great Thursday!
Wednesday, July 4, 2012
Happy 4th of July!
I hope everyone has a really fun day today! :) And stay safe....and be careful with those fireworks!
I will probably have a very uneventful 4th. Cody has to work, so I don't have any plans. I may go downtown with my parents and Remy to watch the fireworks. I haven't seen the fireworks in quite a few years, so it might be fun.
Please stay safe!!
I will probably have a very uneventful 4th. Cody has to work, so I don't have any plans. I may go downtown with my parents and Remy to watch the fireworks. I haven't seen the fireworks in quite a few years, so it might be fun.
Please stay safe!!
Sunday, July 1, 2012
Two Posts in one day??....whaaaat????
So I know I just wrote a basically pointless blog post, but I just found the coolest thing that I have to share with you all. It's called "Foodie Penpals". Basically, it's a program where on the 5th of every month, you are set up with another person in the program, and you make them a goodie box. It can be any foodie thing, from homemade stuff, to local stuff, to just some of your favorite stuff! One of the boxes that I read about even had homemade cd's! So each month, you get a new box from someone in the country, and you get to try some awesome local items, and maybe some items that aren't local, but you've never tried before! How awesome!!!
If you want to learn more about this awesome program, go to http://www.theleangreenbean.com/foodie-penpals/ . I can't wait to get started! :)
If you want to learn more about this awesome program, go to http://www.theleangreenbean.com/foodie-penpals/ . I can't wait to get started! :)
Work Work Work
I sometimes feel like my life is nothing but work, sleep, and eating, and sometimes running. And then two days a week, we have fun.
I feel like I've had a lot of random stuff on my mind lately, and I know I should run to help clear my mind, but for some reason, running isn't really on my mind. Well, it sort of is....the fact that I'm not doing it as much as I should be is on my mind. But that's not really one of the top things going on in my head.
One of the things is my work. I am still in talks with the restaurant that I used to work at for the management position. I have been told by another one of the managers at the restaurant that he has overheard the GM and the regional manager talking, and it's looking good for me. I got an email from the regional manager yesterday, asking if I'd be able to meet on Thursday to talk with him, but unfortunately I picked up a few hours on Thursday and Friday at a coffee shop that I used to work at, so I'll be working there from 10 until 3, and my other job from 4-10. I'm hoping to meet with him sometime next weekend, or the week after next. I just am nervous about the whole thing, because this will be my first "grown up" job. I did work as an Assistant Food and Beverage Manager at a local golf club, but I didnt really do much there. I graduated last year with my Bachelors in Food and Beverage Management, and this will be the first job I've had since I got that degree, so it feels like much more of a big deal. I just hope that I can do it, and don't mess up. I can't help but think of how great it will be for us if I get this job. We'll have great insurance, I'll get paid more. It'll just be much more responsibility than I am used to.
Also, I have been feeling weirdly lonely lately. Not with Cody, because he's great. But we don't have very many friends. We both used to have a lot, but as we grew up, and work became a priority, our friends sort of fell to the side. I don't really have many girlfriends anymore. I was thinking tonight how I'd love to go out and have drinks, but I don't really have anyone to go do that with, besides Cody. I guess most of the time it's not a big deal, I just don't really know how to meet new people.
Oh well. I'm at where I'm at for a reason, and sooner or later life will throw us another curveball, good or bad, just like we seem to get every so often.
Have a good night! :)
I feel like I've had a lot of random stuff on my mind lately, and I know I should run to help clear my mind, but for some reason, running isn't really on my mind. Well, it sort of is....the fact that I'm not doing it as much as I should be is on my mind. But that's not really one of the top things going on in my head.
One of the things is my work. I am still in talks with the restaurant that I used to work at for the management position. I have been told by another one of the managers at the restaurant that he has overheard the GM and the regional manager talking, and it's looking good for me. I got an email from the regional manager yesterday, asking if I'd be able to meet on Thursday to talk with him, but unfortunately I picked up a few hours on Thursday and Friday at a coffee shop that I used to work at, so I'll be working there from 10 until 3, and my other job from 4-10. I'm hoping to meet with him sometime next weekend, or the week after next. I just am nervous about the whole thing, because this will be my first "grown up" job. I did work as an Assistant Food and Beverage Manager at a local golf club, but I didnt really do much there. I graduated last year with my Bachelors in Food and Beverage Management, and this will be the first job I've had since I got that degree, so it feels like much more of a big deal. I just hope that I can do it, and don't mess up. I can't help but think of how great it will be for us if I get this job. We'll have great insurance, I'll get paid more. It'll just be much more responsibility than I am used to.
Also, I have been feeling weirdly lonely lately. Not with Cody, because he's great. But we don't have very many friends. We both used to have a lot, but as we grew up, and work became a priority, our friends sort of fell to the side. I don't really have many girlfriends anymore. I was thinking tonight how I'd love to go out and have drinks, but I don't really have anyone to go do that with, besides Cody. I guess most of the time it's not a big deal, I just don't really know how to meet new people.
Oh well. I'm at where I'm at for a reason, and sooner or later life will throw us another curveball, good or bad, just like we seem to get every so often.
Have a good night! :)
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