Good Intentions don't get you anywhere in life.

I woke up this morning, and once again, didn't wanna go run.  But I knew that if I didn't, I'd regret it...so I got my shoes on and left.  I was about to get on the highway to go to the gym, and I decided that I wanted to try the 20 minute run, and that the best way to do that would to be running outside.  I was afraid that the track at the gym would get me way too bored and I wouldn't have anything to focus on other than the fact that I was running for 20 minutes, and I wanted to stop.  The problem is, I didn't know where to go.

So, I drove down the street.  I want to figure out what my pace is, so I was excited that I'd be outside and my GPS would work on my phone, and I could use the mapmyrun app to figure all that out.  I drove down one of the side roads that is a few miles from my house, off of the busy road, and drove.  I was hoping to find somewhere that I could park, but there really wasn't any. So I parked my car along side of the road, next to a field.  I was worried that I'd get yelled at for parking there, but I don't think anyone really cared.

So, I got all my stuff out, and got out of the car.  I decided I'd stick kind of close to my car, just in case someone wanted me to move it, I could do so pretty easily.  I started my c25k app, and the mapmyrun app, and pandora, which is generally what I do when I go to the track.  I did my warm up, and started running (and I still can't figure out why the countdown only had me running for 8 minutes, before it started a cool down?). I was doing the run/walk intervals, where I'd run for 90 seconds, walk for 30, hoping that would help me get through the entire 20 minutes.  Well, I did 8 minutes, it had me starting my cool down for some reason.  And basically, it was hell.  I know that I'm having trouble with the 2 8-minute intervals, but at least I can generally run one of the two intervals!  I had such a hard time running.  I don't know if it was the cool air, or the wind, or the uneven ground, or a mixture of all of that, but my lungs were burning so bad.  I was coughing like I've been a smoker for the last 25 years.  I still am coughing like crazy and my chest hurts.  And, I got stopped by 2 different cars, asking me if I needed a ride.  They saw my car and thought that my car had broken down and that I needed a ride.  And then, somehow I hit a button on my phone, and it closed down the c25k app!  I was so frustrated by this time that I walked to my car, and started to cry, and went home.

I just feel so defeated.  I want to be as proud of myself as I was when I did the 5 minute run.  I dont know if I'm doing so badly because I am slacking, or if changing up my running environment is messing with me, or what the deal is.  I decided I'm going to get back to a regular schedule.  Every other day, doing my run.  I have been slacking a bit, when it comes to my schedule.  Instead of running every other day, I've been running every 2-3 days.  I'm sure that's part of the problem.  I need a way to make myself feel motivated again.

Sorry if my blog is becoming more depressing than inspiring.  I love having you all read this, and give me advice. I am listening to your advice and it is helping me so much! If it weren't for you guys, I'd probably stop by now!! So THANK YOU!